Hey fellas,

welcome back at my nice blog! How ya' doin'?

I have to be honest I'm not doing well. I have some health problems and it's not about phisical illnes, for example flu or something... I have a big mental health problem. I think I'm depressed or something similar. I always think about death, I'm always sad and nerveous and I do not know why. I wanted to go to a psychologist but I did not have any possibility. I talked about it with my parents but they didn't give a fuck after few days when I told them my problems... and I don't have much money to pay an expert. 

By the way, I have some days when I feel happy. Sometimes I'm laughing but then I pull a trigger and I end it. I don't know why. I should be happy. I should love myself. I should love the way who I am, but I'm not. I hate myself. I think I'm ugly, fat, selfish, boring and disgusting... 

I love someone. That person is a she.

She's beautiful. She's energetic. She's way much better than me. She's smart... in her own way. She loves her life and she's always happy even if she's not. She's so foolish and funny. I think I'm getting fell in her...

...I'm scerwed

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